I'm really sorry.

I know you maybe able to read this, and i know you don't like it when i use people's names.. so i wont. All i will say is this..

I miss being able to hit you in the halls and say "Hey!"
I miss oovoo-ing with you every other day.
I miss being able to call you up when i had a rough day with my family.
I miss having you over to throw toothpicks and chase me around my house.
I miss you coming over and playing video games with me and Johnny.
I miss being able to text you and you actually responding.
I miss filming with you.
I miss sleeping over your house.
I miss the mean alto jokes you would make to me.
I miss going to the movies with you.
I miss going to Duchess with you and your girlfriend.
I miss just talking to you.
I miss being friends with you.


I miss you.

I'm really really sorry about everything i did and everything i said, honest to god i am. At the time i was just doing fucked up things, and it was completely rude and unfair to you. You know i would never mean to hurt you, i never wanted to. That was never my idea, ever. I was a wreck before, everything was changing so fast. People were leaving for college, my family was having a couple bad weeks, and just school starting was so stressful and i understand i can never blame my actions on my own personal problems. I apologize for doing that. I apologize for hurting your feelings. I apologize for being a total bitch. I really am sorry. I just wish things could go back to normal, but i know you never want them too. I fucked up to bad. I just wish you would talk to me, i wish we could start off being somewhat friends again. We don't need to talk everyday or anything. Just once in awhile to say hey and such. I just want to be able to see you in the hallways and not be scared shitless or be able to tell you something important and not be ignored.

The point is.. I'm sorry.