Hallelujah!

I am off book for Act 1 !
Hell mother fucking yeahhhhh sonn.

What-fucking-ever.

I'm really done with High School, if i could drop out i totally would. All i want to do is go to college and live my life. Yes, i know College will be extremely hard, but I'm ready for that. I'm ready for that challenge. I'm tired of every girl at Masuk starting drama and shit talking behind peoples back. I don't get the point of it.. It annoys the fucking hell out of me. All i want, is to leave this shit ass town.

Only 9 more months.

Glad people think that I'm immature.. awesome.

Fuck.

Jason.

Here's just a regular text session between me and my bestfriend.

Jason: Hey cutie.
Me: Hey! Whaddup?
Jason: Nothing much, doing college shit. You?
Me: Same! Ive been working on it since like 12 this afternoon, i need a break!
Jason: Hahah, me too. You know what we should do?
Me: ...What?
Jason: Go to the same college together. That way i can see you EVERY FUCKING DAY.
Me: Hahah, what a splendid idea, Jason! =)
Jason: I know! That way we can see each other and i will never have to miss you so much.
Me: Hahah, aw. I miss you too baby!
Jason: DOUBT IT. I MISS YOU MORE.
Me: False.
Jason: Truth.
Me: Stop lying, Its highly unattractive.
Jason: But I'm not lying. ;) I miss you SO much Cathy. You know if i could stay in Monroe i would in a heartbeat, and if i was there i would make sure no one would hurt you ever because you are the most beautiful, funniest, sweetest and best girl that i know. Any guy who doesn't see that is blind.


...Yepp. He's the best friend i could ever ask for. <3

BAHAHAHAHA.

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAH. OH MY GOD. YOU STUPID BITCH.

You have NO idea what you're saying half the time. You repeat things to me that i already know, You keep saying "I'm not mad" and that "I'm not ignoring you".

Kay, well here's what i have to say..
Don't fucking talk to me ever again, We're done.
Bye.

I hate being sick.

Coughing, sneezing, cramps, headaches, warm fuzzy slippers, Tea, my blanket, sweatshirt, sweatpants, Law And Society essay, memorizing lines, college searching, fights, crying, watching movies, and eating food is what this weekend has been.

I'm really sorry.

I know you maybe able to read this, and i know you don't like it when i use people's names.. so i wont. All i will say is this..

I miss being able to hit you in the halls and say "Hey!"
I miss oovoo-ing with you every other day.
I miss being able to call you up when i had a rough day with my family.
I miss having you over to throw toothpicks and chase me around my house.
I miss you coming over and playing video games with me and Johnny.
I miss being able to text you and you actually responding.
I miss filming with you.
I miss sleeping over your house.
I miss the mean alto jokes you would make to me.
I miss going to the movies with you.
I miss going to Duchess with you and your girlfriend.
I miss just talking to you.
I miss being friends with you.


I miss you.

I'm really really sorry about everything i did and everything i said, honest to god i am. At the time i was just doing fucked up things, and it was completely rude and unfair to you. You know i would never mean to hurt you, i never wanted to. That was never my idea, ever. I was a wreck before, everything was changing so fast. People were leaving for college, my family was having a couple bad weeks, and just school starting was so stressful and i understand i can never blame my actions on my own personal problems. I apologize for doing that. I apologize for hurting your feelings. I apologize for being a total bitch. I really am sorry. I just wish things could go back to normal, but i know you never want them too. I fucked up to bad. I just wish you would talk to me, i wish we could start off being somewhat friends again. We don't need to talk everyday or anything. Just once in awhile to say hey and such. I just want to be able to see you in the hallways and not be scared shitless or be able to tell you something important and not be ignored.

The point is.. I'm sorry.

Bad day.

Some people i find quite hilarious, others not so much. Yeah, i think it's funny at lunch when you guys all crack jokes at me and the other kids. I do the same thing too! I don't deny it at all, yes it's pretty funny. But when you do it every single day, never let me finish what I'm saying, or to the point where i just want to scream... then its honestly not funny anymore. Excuse me I'm a FUCKING SENIOR. Treat me with some respect please. Do you realize that i am the only one in our lunch group who is a senior and sits with you guys. Do you realize that even though more then half of the kids who come in there i want to punch in the fucking face? Do you also realize that these "jokes" and "teasing" that you always do to me really aren't funny anymore? Do you realize that I'm actually really hurt by them? Today honestly went over the line. I could never saw a fucking word without someone judging or making fun of me, I could never be okay to speak my mind around you guys and i could never feel welcomed around any of you. Some friends you are.

Oh and Don't worry i won't sit with you anymore. Hmm...I wonder who you are going to make fun of now.

I use song lyrics to describe my life sometimes..

I havent been to church since I don’t remember when
Things were goin’ great ‘til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do
He said you can’t go hatin’ others who have done wrong to you
Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn
Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know where ever you are honey, I pray for you

I’m really glad I found my way to church
‘Cause I’m already feelin’ better and I thank God for the words
Yeah I’m goin’to take the high road
And do what the preacher told me to do
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
You keep messin’ up and I’ll keep prayin’ for you

I pray your tire blows out at 100 and 10
I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car,
wherever you are honey, I pray for you.

I pray for you..

I miss you.

Sha-la-la-la-la, sha-la-la-la-la
You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms

I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

[CHORUS:]
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm living out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying by too fast

[CHORUS]

I know you're in a better place, yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

[CHORUS x2]

Yes, those lyrics are from Miley Cyrus. Judge me.

Fuck My Life

Hi.
If you haven't noticed yet, My name is Cathy.
I'm 17, Senior and i was diagnosed with Diabetes about 2 months ago.
Since then my life has not been the same. My diet had to make a dramatic change and now i get awful headaches, intense sharp pains and every time i see my 6 bottles of medication i want to cry. I feel like no one understands what i am going through, This is extremely difficult and no one is helping me along the way.
Some friends i have...

I hate having Diabetes.

I GOT THE PART!

Evil Stepmother FTW.
November 19th and 20th. BE THERE.

Memories.

This was my Sophomore year, The day i got back from the greatest weekend of my life. These people are more then my friends, they are my family. I love them greatly, they helped me open up more, they helped me realize who i really am, and they helped me find God. They are the greatest people on the world, the end.



This was the summer before my Junior year when i had my Sweet 16 Birthday Party. These two keep my strong, i honestly don't know what i would do without them. <3

This was Freshman year at Kiki's Halloween party. That night was SOOOO much fun. Every single year she has a Halloween party and every single year i always wear my jets jersey, REPRESENTTTT. Anyway, this was a good time with good friends.


This night was awesome. The party where some cute guy thought i was 18 when i was actually 15, where me and Jeff peed in the bushes together, where Billie and i thought the cops were coming so we hide behind a tree, and where i drank so much i kept going to the bathroom every 30 minutes. Gooooooooooood times.

More Memories.

This was last year? I think. These two always have my back, no matter what. Best friends since Monroe El. <3


This was Freshman year. James, dated for a couple months. We had a good time. The way it ended makes me sad though, i still think the kid is fucking hysterical.



This was my Sophomore year, Spirit week. We have been so close since 5th grade. Words cant even describe how much i love this kid.



This was my Freshman year, Redhead time period to be exact. We've been like this since 7th grade. Nothing will change that.

And yes, some more.

This was my freshman year. This was my gang. Sat at lunch with them every single day. This was also the day that Krista and I cried until we couldnt produce anymore tears.



This was the "red and white day" of my sophomore year? I think. Anyway, i love him. There is no doubt in my mind that he wont make it far. He's incredible.



This was the day Nicole started our tradition of dressing up together on halloween at school. I love her.<3


This was the night of Jessica's sweet 16 party. Ive known him my whole life... literally. My family bought his house, i live in his old room. :)

Fuck.

So today has dragged out too long..

Today my two best friends in the world moved into their dorms in college. What am i doing? Sitting in my house doing absolutely nothing. Christy came over and we watched jersey shore for a good 3 hours. But now? What do i do now? Every one's away, or at college or is too busy.


I cant believe you both just left me and i already miss you so much. I just want these tears to go away.. I just want November to be here as soon as possible.

I miss you guys. <3

Lukey.

Even though the kid can give me back pains when he jumps on me and screams "KOALA" ..

i still love him.
I MEAN... 'Hi charlie may' ;)

#$%^&*(@!!!!

I GOT A CALL BACK.
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It's time to go our seperate ways.
Goodbye's suck.
Later, bro.